Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Cellphone Project
various text messages that I was sent.
Bex-o-vision
Fork in kitty
Tissu magic anyone?
She is not all right. She thinks there’s a very good chance she’ll get fired from work today
“I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world”
No she said she only had one shotglass but she sounded really crushed/ miserable
Not even after rehearsal? Damn
Oh that’s right, the concert
I’ve been really frustrated and sad since yesterday, I can’t stand being helpless either.Just woke up. I feel like my brain has been put through a blender with packets of fear mix to make giant sad smoothie
Not til 6pm
She is completely in la-la-land.
I just exploded and screamed FUCK FUCK FUCK
She sees him tons of times and he barely aims me and when he does its just to talk about graphic novels
She has work tonight and she thinks she may be fired
Cause her boss wants to talk to her and apparently sounded pissed
She says her life is falling apart and that her friends are all splitting up
She said she’s been messing up at work more often than usual
Masking her problems without facing them—that’s exactly what I said to her last night
I tried to explain it to her but I didn’t do it very well and she refuted me
I hope so, but Tim doesn’t talk to his ushers about shit like that. Warnings etc goes through Kathie or the house managers
She needs therapy, meds, counseling, a retreat to a monastery or something
I have been asking her constantly to come live with me…and then she said that…that’s why I blew up at her. She stopped responding.
Maybe her boss is mad because she’s been calling you during work
She isn’t responding to me anymore
Yes. And I don’t appreciate being talked to like a school teacher to a child
I got kind of ultimatum. If I want to stay on the schedule, I have one last chance to prove it. That’s house it sounded. I feel like such a fuck up.
I almost did. I don’t know dude, I feel so fucked up right now. I just want to get out of here. I don’t want to go home tonight.
I overheard them talking about financial troubles. I think they’re going to fire an ushed. I got the talking to.
Yeah I know.
I am so high that for one second I was convinced I had walked OUT of Oakland and INTO Santa Monica.
Is yoga really that magical?
Really? You can’t explore?
Go do something fun with your sister
Why not fish with her?
Wtf…okay
That sucks that you can’t spend time with her
Disclaimer text. I will be at a party from 10 to god knows when…I can’t promise fast responses. If I send TFLN-worthy material, you have permission to post.
Me too, man.
Why not chill with them?
Your sister? Your Parents?
Only thing you can do is wait it out or go do something with someone. I’m sorry.
It could belike Palm Springs only 5x worse
Yeah but if she sits on my couch blank-eyed and dead to the world I am not tolerating that bullshit. I’ll literally drag her out and go do something. When I exploded at her (and this involved a lot of swearing) she said “what do you want me to say? I believe it is real.” She sounded so…pathetic.
What frustrates me most is that she keeps shooting down every possible solution I throw at her
Wasn’t she at a show last night?
That’s how far gone her brain is. She somehow decided that he talked to me all the time about living with me when that is so untrue..based on what? Nothing.
Do I get to babysit, too?
Me too. I think you need to spend your twenties finding yourself out of the shadow of your family, then by 20, all’s fair game.
But of course you don’t have to listen to me, it’s merely my own opinion.
How many of his friends freeload as opposed to not. I keep hearing about it so much lately.
Seriously? Shit.
Oh fuck I just looked at the fb event. She might be coming
Tell them it’s a camping trip with me there
I don’t know the people on the Joshua tree guest list but I’ll try and counteract freeloading
Exactly. So what I’m gonna do is, I’m gonna bring a shitload of cheap food so Pat won’t have to buy any
I think he’d be a lot like daddy when I was little. Dad used to do all sort of silly jokes with me to elict a scream or laugh out of me
Like if he got home from wwork and I was sitting at the counter he would crouch through the door, so I didn’t see him, sidle behind the counter
Still crouched, the jump up and make a funny face
I don’t see why you guys wouldn’t be. You guys have been through a lot
He’s said to me he loves you because he can be so comfortable and himself around you
Gaaah I really want to go to folsom fair today but I don’t want to go alone
One of, if not the world’s best and famous leather/ bdsm fetish sex festival. You can get flogged or spanked or fisted in public…anything goes
Why? Is there something bothering you?
Then next time roleplay when you feel totally mentally into it…otherwise it kinda sucks for everybody. I’m sorry.
Damn, girl! Get on that!
I can’t remember the last time I had sushi,…meep
I knooow. But can’t afford it on my own…rather do it on special occasions.
Like if I got a girlfriend I’d dote on her and buy sushi for her
OH, MAKE SURE HE EATS OYSTERS.
They’re like olives or chocolate…they make people horny
Yeahh…there are some foods that naturally turn people on
The idea is depressing, yes… but I hope to see it as a temporary western solution
I think eastern medicine can be equally effective
Aw, he’s fucking there?! When are you back so I can swoop you up?
Pretty magical, I was tired as frick through yoga/work. I’m no on a room cleaning mission.
GOD DAMNIT! Are you doing okay?
Since he hasn’t answered his phone in days
I just got a shirt that says “let them eat cake” in cool font over a halftone photo of lesbians kissing
GAH! I would love to, but I can’t. I owe a guy there money I don’t have
Oh yes. Will your party be in Feb?
Oh my god yay. I want to have a pink penis cupcake with green sprinkles
Hello my friend. How r u? Long time no talk. How have u been?
Yeah, I’ve been here since yesterday.
OHHH! How did it go?
Validation must really help.
Really? I thought therapists were supposed to be neutral
Seriously, I can’t even imagine how I would feel if my mom said that to me.
Fuck! Did he battle the mom-dragon out?
Was she mad?
Do share.
Hey janna, whats funnier than 24?
….*whispers* 25….
Thursday ;)
Woo, no flu for janna! I’ve been debating on getting one or not.,..
True enough. I probably should get one….but I hate needles
:o/ that is most unfortunate.
Just signed up at the pharmacy they did it
Yeah, now my arm feels like its been punched. But I got ice cream after so its all good. XD
Man so what was the outcome of the laptop ordeal?
Ettinger
Class cuzz
Yep
I started a new painting last night for the show and worked for a few hours…it creeped me out enough that I covered it up when I went to bed. That’s a first.
It’s not finished, though…?
I’ll take a picture when I’m back at my apartment
WHAT??? Is he out now?
My mom is gonna be in rehearsal from 6 30 til 10
Yeah. God, is he okay??
Okay let me know how it is. It wasn’t anything TOO awful, I hope
Yo, go towards devin’s and call me when you’re off the bus.
What do you see in my future?
I was just curious to know the first thought that crossed your mind. I should have asked you in person
How is he?? I’ve been worried
Really? You sure? What happened? Was it drugs or did he do something wacky in public that the coppers didn’t like?
What’s wrong?
What went down?
If a straight woman wants to take a shower with me while high (we aren’t high yet) is that supposed to mean something?
Will you please tell me what’s going on and why he was in jail? I’ve been stressing out.
What the fuck????
I can’t. I’m still getting my car back.
I was scared that it was something bad.
There is a GIANT and seriously GIANT box of condoms in the supply closet at my job
Literally just not. Cost 250 bucks
My feet be always dirty now and I be always asked to smoke people up
I do shower but I barely have time for it anymore
IS THAT A BAD THING
Sorry I left with your bra
Please call me tomorrow if you can.
I don’t know. I don’t know about anything anymore
I never went to sleep.
That he’d connected with me in ways he’s never done and because of that he doesn’t want to persue any kind of relationship. Felt like it wouldn’t work, idk.
I understand where he’s coming from but is like I had some hope and now…I don’t know we talked about it a while but it just went in circles
Shit. Well I could just chill while u do, I dunno. Fuck
She found out she’s moving away last night. Bad timing
What kind of talk?
No I meant did she get visibly upset while discussing with him?
Really??? She texted me at 2:16 am but I had conked out by 1:30am
Gonna hop in the shower now brb
You mean applications?
Why?
You are savagely intelligent and you’re taking an AP workload plus college classes that would send people crying .. You are incredible
Dude! You have an excellent record, you’ll be fine.
Coming down to meet you after school
Sounds good
It is my goal to someday install a thai iced tea fountain in my house
She’d been doing the same for weeks with me
Is she skipping her classes?
Whaaaaat??? Why?
Look more carefully… they’re not having sex
Yeah… she’s sprouting out of the other womans groin and the woman’s hands are inside her lower belly
Dude! Is everything okay now?
Okay. BTW, were you pissed at me earlier when I couldn’t chill? I kinda got that vibe.
Cool, I thought you would have but I wanted to make sure.
Where you at gurl?
Happy Friday
Well it is, as far as the next 6ish months go
Sure thing!
I have to get it before I fly down next Friday
Trying to pick up a cat while high is very difficult
Okay!
I think I just texted a goodnight kiss to a freshman girl
Does he have any particular animals or symbol or object he really connects to?
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